Monday, May 26, 2008

Just me and my boy

Well on Thursday afternoon Jeff took off for YC Edmonton with our youth group. Yeah not my most favorite times when Jeff is away. I find I get really weepy about everything, my phone is silent and I wonder "did I have friends", and I am just done parenting by the end of it all. However, this week my wonderful Aunt and Uncle offered to take Jeremy from Friday night to Sunday afternoon. In all honesty, nothing has ever felt so needed in my life. I continue to struggle parenting Jeremy, continue to be frustrated by everyone's opinions on the situation and how they would parent him differently, and feel like I am up against a brick wall when I ask my friends around me for parenting advice and I am stuck with, "I don't know what I would do". Not very helpful when you feel like you are at the end of your rope. There that is off my chest along with the tears on my cheeks feels really good to just get out.
In the awesomeness of it all, Aiden and I got some really awesome bonding time and just time to pour all of my attention on him and not feel guilty. He wondered around a lot and asked for da da. Try explaining to a 1 year old that he will be back in a few days. Since our car was home he also thought Jeff should be around. What a funny guy. I just literally soaked it in, enjoyed going to bed at 9:30 and going on breakfast, and lunch and supper dates with my honey. Yeah hard to cook for two. Anyway here's just a couple pics since my camera was totally dead and I forgot to charge my batteries. I think I have mentioned before that Aiden absolutely loves, loves the vacuum. We were getting so annoyed at him always playing on ours that Jeff made him his own little vacuum with one of the metal bars and an attatchment. It literally keeps him busy for hours! However he does enjoy using mine the best and squeals in delight when we turn it on.


Helping me water the plants, hmmm a little thirsty himself I guess. I worked pretty hard this weekend and got most of my bedding plants in, dug a new bed for my tomatoes, and just tidied up our yard. Only my garden left to plant this week and my spring duties are done! What a refreshing weekend, and I was oh so glad when Jeff crawled into our bed at 1:30am this morning!

On a side note, Jeremy will be leaving at the end of August, please pray as we try to get through these next couple months with patience and understanding and most of all love. Also as we prepare ourselves, but especially him for this next major transition.

7 comments:

Ruth said...

You and Jeff have done an amazing job with Jeremy!!!!! We saw that for ourselves this weekend, God has and will use you to impact his life forever. We will continue to pray for you as we know that it will be incredibly difficult when the time come for him to leave, (we have been there many times, and each time it became harder to say good-bye)but God is faithful and he will give you strengh to carry on.
A. Ruth

Yvonne said...

It must feel so frustrating for you and Jeff to be hitting that wall with J, but I've seen how good of a job you two are doing with him. I mean that. Praying for you still and unceasingly as you continue to struggle in these next couple of months.
Yea for bonding time with Aiden! Glad it was a good weekend for you in that way. He's a cutie and it was great to see you all for a bit. Love you!

Leanne said...

I admire you so much, Jocelyn. It must take so much courage and energy to be a foster parent.
I've said it before, and I'll say it again...it would be so nice to be able to get together for playdates. Perhaps you'll get to visit this summer? It would be lovely to see you again.
I'll be praying as you finish up these last months with Jeremy.

The Olson's: said...

Parenting a child who doesn't react "normally" to traditional discipline & consequences in very frustrating. Despite the consistency and love (which I know you are doing), they just don't seem to "get it". Hang in there and don't be hard on yourself.

After our foster son left, without realizing why at first, I went through an emotional time; not because I missed him but because I realized how was exhausted. I realized I had been abused by him (he was 9 1/2 when he left) - mostly emotionally. It took a few months of healing to feel "normal" again. I will pray that you will have the stamina to finish these last few months well and that your heart will heal quickly after.
~ Leanne

Anthony and Kristi said...

Oh, Joc - I miss you!! I wish we could have been together over the weekend! I get weepy when Anthony's away too :) I'm glad you had a productive weekend though! I love seeing pics of Aiden - he's so cute! I'll be praying for you especially over the next few months!! I love you, BD!!
Love "Stace" :)

Anonymous said...

Joc,
You are a wonderful mom! I only hope that I can learn from you when I have children. I know what it has been like for you and Jeff to parent Jeremy this past year and I would never ever have lasted this long with some of the issues you two have faced with him. But because God has given you and Jeff patience and such loving spirits for this type of thing you have been able to show Jeremy love in so many forms. I know that it is hard to see the impact that you have had on Jeremy's life, but I think back to the first Sunday he was in church with you guys and the first thing that came to my mind was that a seed was being planted in his life and I know that that will stay with him forever.
I am glad you had a good weekend to spend with the little monkey! My legs are sore today from chasing him yesterday all around the basement! He is so much fun. Have a good week. Love ya,
Jolene

Dan and Lynn said...

Wow, so much going on in your house! That's great that you got to have so much bonding time with Aiden (even though it's always hard for your hubby to be away)! Love the pics of your cutie:). Sorry to hear you've had such a rough time with J. He sounds like a sweetheart, but he must be such a challenge at the same time. I hope that when he leaves, it will be a smooth transition for everyone.