Just thought I would give everyone an update on our crazy thing called life. If you have been keeping up with our blog you know we begun our first stint of fosterparenting with 2 and 1/2 year old twins. They came with ALOT more behaviour problems then we anticipated, after a really hard weekend, we made the really tough decision that this was not a right fit for our family. Today we were blessed to have Jeff's sister Jeanna help out all day, Thank you so much Jeanna you are a lifesaver:) I think she had a better understanding about why we had to make our decision! it's seems easy to say just hang in there, however, I haven't been a good mom to Aiden, just meeting his basic needs and not being able to spend any other time with him because every ounce of my energy was going to the girls. I honestly have barely eaten or slept in 3 days. This is not how we envisioned our fostering experience to be, we really just want to love kids, and I think we jumped in a little to quickly. Right now the feeling of love seems very far away amidst our frustration. We are going to take a big step back and start with one and probably wait until after our long aniticpated holiday to BC. Our resource worker is SO awesome and SO encouraging, saying that unfortunately all the homes are having the same problems, so they will probably be moved to a 24/7 supervised home. It made us feel a lot better about our decision.
Continue to keep us in your prayers as I strongly believe this is what God has called us to do!
So tommorow these poor little guys once again get their things packed up and moved to a new environment, I don't take that lightly and tears are inevitable as I do think of their sweet faces and the crap their little lives have had to already endure.
Monday, July 09, 2007
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I am praying for you and Jeff as you deal with this transition and find your way in the foster parent life. I love you so much and I know this decision was made in prayer and for the best interest of your family. Can't wait to see you!
I wish I could come hug you today. What a weekend you have had. Know that you are in my prayers. The same God who promises to hold us near his heart is also holding these little gals. He loves them so much. And he loves you three so much. Trusting in his big picture eyes and plans. Love you so much.
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